6mnths

bfast: apple

lunch: fried rice

snack: 1 pear, some cherries

dinner: salad with chicken, carrots, cranberries, and a boiled egg

NO SWEETS!

hopped on the scale today and the numbers were daunting… 149 lbs. however! i think i may be bloating cause i feel shark week coming on. regardless, that is unacceptable! today is the first day i’ve eaten really clean… and i plan on keeping it up! three day hump, three day hump… i’m also thinking about starting jillians 30 day shred, just for kicks :)

bfast: slice of toast with pb and half a sliced banana

lunch: half a turkey cheese sandwich

others: poptart, apple/orange juice (real fruit! i have a juicer at home)

hello all!

so i’m a big big day dreamer.. all i do is think about what if scenarios. and i know that’s not healthy cause in all honesty, what am i getting accomplished by imagining “what if” i do something? right? it’s a work in progress haha.. anyway! i was day dreaming and all i can think about is how happy i’m gonna feel when i can strut around in my bikini this summer and not feel like i’m the ugliest girl in the room. the best way to motivate yourself is a play off on positive reinforcement.. the way i do it is to remind myself of what i want rather than what i don’t want. so! what do i want? i want to be happy, healthy, and proud. period. i believe that losing weight and generally bettering my eating and exercise habits will help me accomplish that. losing weight and changing my bad habits are a couple things that i have never (at least not yet!) been able to achieve.. and so i’m determined to make this my last and final try!

hope everyone else is doing well. remember to stay positive!

(this may or may not be because i weighed myself this morning at 148.8 lbs.. 1.4 lbs more than i was last time i weighed myself.. yikes!)

bfast: pancakes, berries, banana slices, sausage, bacon, eggs

lunch: half a turkey/cheese sandwich

dinner: white rice with stir fry shrimp and broccoli/spinach

obviously not a great start! but hey, every second is a new opportunity right? dinner is gonna be clean for sure!

i guess i should note my goals.. i basically want to be confident with my body again. the way to get there, i think, is by exercise and eating right - fueling myself with reasons to be proud. tangible goals (which, ironically i’m not sure are such a great thing) include: getting down to 130 lbs (losing 17 lbs of fat, muscle weight is an exception of course!), being able to run 3 miles without stopping, being able to do a pull up, getting flexible again!, being happy with what i see in the mirror.

the list is sure to change as i progress!

I’ve been trying to lose weight for a very long time, and I’m finally putting my foot down. I’m giving myself six months to do something with myself.. and I’m going to be tracking my progress on here.

This is a journey towards self-acceptance and confidence. Join me!